So, maybe this is normal when you're not hyped up on sugar, or maybe it's because I got way less than my requisite 8 hours of sleep last night, but I'm feeling very....yeah. Just kind of here. Just really mellow.
Aaanyway. Yesterday I did much better with the eating, and I didn't try to eat my steering wheel by the time I got to my parents' house after work to pick up the little guy. We ended up staying for dinner and I had my leftover rice and cherries and blueberries from lunch and a turkey burger patty. I was in a horrible mood, though, and didn't feel fit for being in public, and my son was not happy to go home early and be taken away from his cousins. I wanted to do some tofu scrambling last night but my son needed lots of Mommy time, so I played trains (which somehow morphed into playing tigers) and gave him a bath instead. When he had his snack of toast (the kid is a toast freak, he loves bread like crazy!), I had a piece of toasted Ezekiel bread with Earth Balance and all-fruit spread (which we've been eating for months, so much yummier that high-fructose corn syrup jam).
This morning I set my alarm 10 minutes earlier so I wasn't cutting it so close on leaving for work, but my little guy decided he was going to wake up with me....so, "Mommy, I want to snuggle wif you!" and "Mommy, I want to watch Blue's Clues!" and "Mommy, I want a sammich just like yours!" ate up a lot of time. I had leftover oatmeal at work already, and I packed myself a turkey, mustard, and Follow Your Heart vegan mozzarella cheese sandwich on Ezekiel bread, leftover rice, salad greens, watermelon, apples, organic chips and salsa, and cucumbers and carrots. Waaay too much food, I know, and I'll be taking it home for dinner, but I like knowing I'm going to have something to snack on if I get stuck in traffic again. The key to this new way of eating is to eat a little bit, but eat often. When I ate my lunch I only had half a sandwich, half of the amount of rice I brought, my salad, and half of the fruit I brought, and I'm totally satisfied. I've been working on chewing my food thoroughly, too, especially since my body isn't so used to a lot of whole grains.
I've also noticed a huge benefit to bringing my lunch--soooo much less garbage. I usually eat lunch in one of the cafeterias on campus, and I would throw a whole tray full of garbage away every day. Now I pack my lunch in reusable containers and bring my reusable water bottle with me and today I threw away...one napkin! Plus I have more time during my lunch hour to read and relax, as opposed to standing in the cafeteria line.
This weekend is going to be a real challenge, however, because we tend to eat out at restaurants a lot on the weekends. And tomorrow night my husband and I are having "date night"--dinner and a movie--and I'm trying to figure out where we can eat and how I will stay strong against the tasty (butterless) movie theater popcorn.
Because if I have one weakness, it is popcorn...